My True Aspirations
Greetings my favs
People are always asking me “What are your Aspirations or Goals in life” and when I tell them; they laugh or scrunch up their faces like they know I won’t succeed. People are always telling me stop far fetching. Reach for something realistic. But I stick with my answer which is that I want to be involved with the Performing Arts. I want to be an Actress and a model. Writer and director. Become a popular Social Media influencer/Creator - Doing youtube. (I can't wait to start vlogging) I even love videography and photography. - But what model doesn’t (Pictures I took are at the end of this).
My plan is to build my brand with yotube and holonis - To get noticed and grow my fan base. I want to act first; with a little CO Producing on the side. And once I’ve done that for a little while I will start a directing. And of course I’ll never stop acting, because that’s my one true passion. I’ll be writing books and or screenplays inbeteeen all this. Writing just comes naturally to me. I love writing. It’s a creative outlet. I can do anything, make up any story when I’m writing. Aside from when I write my biography - now that will be completely true.
I’ve been studying theatre and film my whole life. It’s my world. I did drama in middle school and theater in high school. Performing arts is my life. And a lot of people don't know how important it is to me. People don't know what I be working on, on the side lines. It’s all I’ve ever known from Joffrey Ballet in middle school to a Hip-Hop dance team in high school, to Drama club in middle school, to Choir in high school and Music class in middle school to making YouTube videos to express my creative side. You name it I’ve done it. And it’s something I’m soooo passionate about, so when someone talks about my dreams as if there stupid; I get really offended and work my butt off to prove them wrong. I’m so determined and focused on what I want...... I won’t let no one get in my way. I can get a little discouraged sometimes, but I always find my way back.
It’s hard to explain but It’s this feeling I get when I’m dancing like I can’t even explain it. I get lost in the music. When performing in front of big crowds I get so nervous; muscle memory saves me from messing up. When I’m acting I feel this rush of energy and excitement. Idk where it comes from, but i feel it when I’m thinking about my future and what i want to do. I get so excited. Butterflies in my stomach. And a huge smile on my face. I love being in front of the camera. When I'm making my youtube videos I get so drawn in and you can just see the passion on my face.
I keep this quote in mind whenever I’m feeling nervous or discouraged that “If your not nervous then you don’t care” and I make sure I keep that thought in the back of my head to keep my courage up. I believe that in any type of Fine Arts weather it’s dance , Music , Theater /Film or actual drawing and painting you need some people that don’t believe in you because then it makes you work harder to prove them wrong and to make those who did believe in you proud of what you’ve become.
People always think something creative won’t take you anywhere in life. If you hear the words “Not everyone makes it” or “Your not talented enough” Don’t believe them. There just scared that you’ll actually succeed. No one ever said following your dreams would be easy. It is a challenge. And it’s a very competitive field. I have my counselors at school telling me that applying to all performing arts colleges or profit schools is a bad idea. “Everyone’s trying to get in those” , “Do you have any talents or experiences to back you up” .... Well yes actually I do. And even if I didn't who the hell are you tell someone they can’t do something or be somebody.
I don’t wanna live the rest of my life in regret. Wondering “What If”. So I applied to 12 schools even though we were only supposed to apply to 7. I applied to reach schools. And profit schools. And performing arts schools. And even tho I won't get into all of them; at least I tried.
Below is some of my work. Photos of me and Photos I took at concerts and the environment.
#QOTD : The only that’s stoping you. Is YOU. Fear is your biggest let down and discouragement is your loudest hater.
- Shakira Marie :)
Winter at 8 AM - Photo by me
Snow Through a blinded perspective- photo by me