Graduating HS w/ 4 years of hardships ! 🎓🔓
As most of you should know from my previous blog postings I was a senior in High School - I finally graduated June 8th ☺️ It was so nerve racking but super exciting too. I’m so proud of my myself; during my 4 years of HS I went through pure hell. My life was a mess and being in School was stressing me out more. (I wasn’t bullied) but I did feel alone sometimes even though I know I have AMAZING FRIENDS that I can call my family. But I did endure the fake friends - the bullshit drama - the selfish guys - the jealous friends - the puberty - the health scares - feeling lost - and I really got to see people’s true colors during this time. I lost a lot of family. I dropped a lot of so called friends. I stood up for myself and showed that I’m not one to walk all over. I learned in these past 4 years who’s really there for me and who’s just a place holder. BLOOD is NOT always THICKET than WATER. It sucked but it was something that needed to be done and I’ve come to terms with it. I’m okay with it. It hurts. But I’m okay. I just think about how great it’ll feel to know that when I succeed I did it without their help. They felt like I owed them b/c they did stuff for me or for my mom. Family should help without wanting to be reprimanded for their help. And you certainly don’t rub it in that persons face that you needed their help. You’ll never get blessed that way. 🤷🏻♀️
(Pictures are throughout the whole post) So you can see my journey. Below are some funny moments.
Money was tight this year but me & my mom we’re able to make PROM & my GRADUATION work wonderfully.
If I do say so myself I went to prom looking like a 2018 version of Cinderella. 😍🔥❤️😝
We looked so beautiful. 🔥🔥🔥
If prom wasn’t already stressful enough my HS had to have finals the following Monday. Then came graduation that Friday. 👩🏻🎓 We walked across the stage and got our diplomas at the Symphony Opera House in Chicago. It lasted about 2- 1/2 hours for around 400 students. I was so nervous walking across that stage. The whole time I walked across It I was repeating “don’t trip” “don’t trip” “don’t trip” in my head. 😂😂 luckyly it worked.
I wanted to dropout of school so many times I’ve lost count. I use to miss days and days out of school because I hated it so much I wanted to stay at home or be anywhere else but School, so I could find some peace. I was failing classes my sophomore year and I brought those grades up back to A’s in weeks after I had been gone from school for months. Junior year I transferred to a better school that was fit for me. And of course I started slacking b/c I thought I could go by unscathed! I was wrong. I was happier there but I still hated school. I failed my first period history class my first semester of my junior year because I was late to her class or didn’t show up at least 3 times a week. So she failed me and I had to do night school to make it up. I’ll never make that mistake again. I got my shit together and made sure I passed my junior year. I did. But senior year was no walk in the park either! I barely passed pre calculus. AND STILL GRADUATED !!!! I didn’t even want to go to college. I wanted to be done with school; and quite frankly I still want to.
idk why I thought things would instantly change and be different once I graduated. They have relatively stayed the same. I guess I feel different, but it’s the end of July and I still have no idea how I’m gonna pay my very expensive tuition for college. I’ve been denied for like 8 loans not to metion if I do take out loans I’ll be over 20 million dollars in debt. 😭🙄🤦🏻♀️
If I get to where I wanna be in life I’ll be able to pay off my debts in no time, but until then I’ll have to have to constantly worry that “What if it doesn’t work out...... then I’ll be shit out of luck and up to my nose in debt”.!!! It’s a tough reality. But I’m going to fight like hell to change it.
I have plans for my life. BIG PLANS. Plans that will make me happy and bring happiness to others. I’ve learned my lesson about telling everyone your plans always ends up blowing up in your face. So it’s best to keep it to yourself. If that’s the one thing that you take away from this blog posing is “To never reveal your plans” - people are jealous and not everyone wants to see you succeed. So to prevent people praying against and blocking what’s due to you - you just keep it to yourself. NO ONE CAN STOP YOUR PLANS IF THEY DONT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE !!! Let your success be your noise while you work in silence. ✊🏼🎥🎬
I don’t know what my future holds but I pray it’s something great. I’ve been through so much.... I know I must be getting prepared for something. And tbh I’m ready for it. I’ve been through enough. I’m strong enough. I can handle it.
Let the following Graduation pictures show that all that hell and high water made me work hard. I’ve had a tough go at life but I didn’t let it kill me. I didn’t give up and I didn’t give in.
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